back home

..and it’s incredibly good. so good that i don’t want to go back haha..!

a lot have happened since i last wrote here, so i hope i will cover at least the most important facts

1st: my holiday with dana was great and i’m glad we came back with the same flight, so.. more fun :D

2nd: my trip from bucharest stupid baneasa to constanta was a real adventure. then, i realized i like what bucharest means to me, but i don’t actually missed bucharest and all its problems.

3rd: i will never ever in my life fly with a low cost airline. but never ever, and i won’t expand this subject, because i don’t  want you to consider me a snob:P. well no more than you already do:))

4th: home is GREAT!!! my internet rocks and i missed being spoiled by mom

5th: i “accomplished” something that i thought i will never be able to: i’ve spilled coke on my macbook. but the next day, my super mom bought me a macbook pro, which actually was my dream since college, so i can’t be depressed anymore

6th: i can’t wait to see my friends in bucharest

7th: still lazy, today i hope to finish half of the work and tomorrow another half

8th: i missed drinking my fav coffee, and i’m not talking about starbucks

9th: i’m happy to vote home.

10th: the coffee tastes much better home.

ps. i need smth\smb to surprise me.

no sleep tonight!

i have lots of readings, 5 essays and many other things to finish until tuesday! it’s almost impossible! this is pure madness!! Coffee has no effect, neither has coke, so how the hell am i suposed to stay awake? i donno, but i must finish all that, because on tuesday night i’m leaving madrid..

i’m listening to muse and i’m a little sad cause their concert in madrid is already sold out and i really wanted to see them. oh well.this pretty sux..

black holes and revelations!!!! and i’m so back on my essay on the spanish burocracy!

see you later aligator.

L.

third post

omg i soooo can’t study, it suxx i have lots of work to do and all i do is cleaning, listening to muse and reading blogs. this is soo bad..oh soooo badddd..but i’m way too excited about tonight. i missed her so much, and i’m way too happy that she’s coming here.

i know that this will be perfect, with lots of fun, nights without sleep, parties and shopping. of course i will have school and papers and i will have to finally find a new home. but all these seems so so easy!! and of course i’ll make sure she sends her papers on time hahaaa..

somebody is playing the piano. he/she is doin pretty well, i like what i hear. and maan it makes me so sleepy..

i just booked the flight to bucharest!!! well i will be staying 11 days, only 4 in bucharest, but i just can’t wait to be home again. i miss lots of things, persons and feelings. actually this will be my winter holiday, because i donno if i can go home for the holidays, way too much work to do :(

i’m off to do some reading..

in a couple of hours i should leave for the airport, to get there just in time to meet my sweetheart!

wov.

L.

coffee break

i can’t focus on my readings so what can i do best than making some coffee and writing on my blog.

i like rules. i like lists. i really do like having everything scheduled and organised. i can’t start my day without a list and cleaning my desk. it’s like a ritual before starting working. when i’m sad i like to clean my room. i know me really well, but when it comes to what i feel and what i do with my feelings i’m a mess. although i pretend to knowing everything, i don’t. it’s harder to put your feelings in order then to take notes at school, to make your grocery list or to clean your house. when it comes to feelings you have no control, or at least no total control. i’d love to know what happens next, if i do the right thing or should i forget about it and move on. haha, like it’s that simple.. as i discovered in the past years, life surprise you in a good or in a bad way but it does. so, we can only control how do we react when we have to face unexpected situations. this is what i’m still trying to learn. i’m failing every time, maybe i’m not trying hard enough donno.. but i have hope, i’m still young haha:))

i’m excited i’ll be in romania in two weeks. excited to see mom and friends and to eat real food. oh and not to worry about grocery shopping, cleaning, doing the laundry or recharging the internet. one week. but it’s smth!!! so i can hope to relax a bit, because i’ve been stressed lately and my life is about to get more and more crazy in the next months. and well, i’m not excited only for the things listed above, but this is totally not your business haha :P

i don’t like romania, i won’t say i hate it because hate is a strong word, but i love what romania means for me. it means my parents, my friends and my memories. in the end i think it’s all that matters. i’m still undecided, i donno if i will stay here or move to another country for a while or going back, because i know there is a possibility for me to go back to Ro, but i know that for now it’s great here, it’s hard but it does worth it. and of course, everything comes with a sacrifice, and if i think a little it’s not that big, because i’m just a couple of hours away.

what i know for sure is that until september, when i’ll be graduating, my life can be as wild as it can be with a master that fills 90% of your time haha, but after september it’s time  to act responsible and mature and to face life. the real life, not the dream i’m living in. more about my future plans in the next posts.

now i should go back to hobsbawn and his perspective on nationalism.

L.

good morning

man it’s a great morning. after all those shitty days, suddenly i feel better and happier. still sick, still incredibly busy but happy. today i need to do a lot of work, because tonight i will go to the airport tooooooo meet dana :) yupiiiee!! she’s coming to madrid for a couple of days and this makes me so so happy that i almost forgot i had only 5 hours of sleep. which is actually decent, in comparison with the last nights but still not enough. the weather is sucky, but what matters is that we get to spend time together, which is wonderful. i am so excited that i barely could sleep, hence my incoherency :P

i need some coffee and i’m ready to start the study session, which i hope will last until at least half of the work is done.

so, talk to you later !!!

 

L.

(a)muse me.

uninteded. you could be my unintended. muse. love. only muse.  i guess it’s one of the greatest love songs ever.

source: youtube.com

conclusions

tell me smth. anything.

what?

smth that makes me happy. come on. it’s that so hard?

your shoes are nice.

it’s not enough. you said the same thing yesterday. and i even don’t wear shoes right now.

well i can’t see you from here.

you will never see me if you don’t come closer.

 

Suddenly he woke up, he was alone. alone, scared and full of regrets.

surprisingly yes

lots of things happened in the past few days..well i found the perfect apartment, now i’m waiting to receive the call, to see if i got it or not..and if not..houston, tenemos un problema.. i have to start the search all over again, and man how i hate searching for things like this..

with school, things are going crazy, lots and lots of work to do.. and it’s about the get more and more crazy..well..i signed up for it, so i should shut up  and go back to work..:( the good part is that i found the place for my internship, if everything goes right, i should do the “practicum” at the ministry of foreign affairs, here in spain of course. this totally made my day.

the weather is playing with my immunity system, and i’m losing… i’m sick, i don’t have the swine flu, but still..it sux..i have the second cold since i get here, it’s crazy, because in romania i don’t get sick so easily.. well.. with some frenadol i hope to get better asap!!!!

now i need to clean a little and to make some lists, and then i should go back to my reading.

well…talk to you later!

wov.

L.

 

Ps. surprisingly yes. :P

long sucky day and disappointments..

as i told you some posts ago, i need to move out in a couple of days. so today i had some appointments with some weird (and not in a good way:P) dudes to see some possible new homes.

in the morning: happyyy!!! so so happy!!!. yes!! i will certainly find a nice house today and i can move in tomorrow, and oh i must buy a new lamp for my NEW desk.

in the evening: disappointed! sad! angry! etc..etc.

the houses were all looking scarry and ugly and dirty and..ew ew..disgusting..this is the key word..what the fuck man..?! i understand that as a student sometimes you just have to make compromises, but still man..to live like pigs?! and of course somewhere far from the centre because the noise will disturb your study. I HATE YOU ALLLLL!! it was supposed to be nice and comfy and happy atmosphere, and of course in the centre because there you can find bars, libraries and shops and of course the train station from where you can take that stupid train that will take you straight to your uni..BIG BIG DISAPPOINTMENT..

oh well, i’ll keep searching until i find a decent place to live.. and this should happen soon..hope so :-s

it was a long sucky stupid day that ended really nice though..no details:P..but let’s say i’m more relaxed right now and i can start my study sessions :)

 

times like these

because this is the theme song of my life here in madrid.

 

source youtube.com